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i saw lil one..

lil one is one healthy kid..

but the doctor kill my mood..

i seriously need to go scan at different clinic next time..

she doesn't even care what i wanted to ask her..

arghhhh..

but seeing lil one actively inside my tummy really made my day..eventho i feel like a zombie today..

tgk world cup nye pasal la ni..

doc also give me a some med for my va**na discharge problem..i thought that is normal kan?

really hope this morning sickness will go away soonnnnnnn!

kesian encek a.n.i..

facing this hormonal mak buyong yg angin all the time..

i love my hubby so much..

sabar ye sayang..

kehadapan...

To my dearest lil one...

mommy soOOOo sorry if sometimes mommy got so angry to someone and some unintended words comes out from mommy mouth..If you heard it,PLEASE ignore it!.. :|
Sometimes mommy got so pressure from work,people around me and even daddy..
I'm scared if the pressure will effect you..
So..mommy apologize again..even though my apologize means nothing to someone
Mommy been trying to eat healthy food like mommy used to eat like carrots,HL milk,fish..
but mommy's throat can't seem to allow those food for me to consume..
So bear with me a lil while k..
When this 1st trimester past by,i promise i cook my food myself and eat alllllll those healthy food for you to grow stronger and healthier.. inshaAllah..
This first trimester are such a roller coaster ride for mommy..(dah mcm mommy monster dah bunyi..hahahha)
My emotional easily hurt especially when people raise their voice to me..
I try to do whatever that they want but still seem not good enough for them..
I hope when I resting at home after this,I'll be more calm and stable..
Patience ya my lil one..
mommy can't wait to see you in 3 weeks time during my 3rd check up..Hopefully,mommy can see you active inside there..

Mommy love u my lil one~Muahxxxxxxxx

Lots of love,
Mommy

its been awhile..

Lama sudah tak menghapdet blog..
ketaklaratan,kemalasan dan semue jenis 'ke' dah melanda diri..
currently,lil one ni mmg obvious anak bapak..
ape2 je yg bapaknya tak suke cam kari n laksa pon die tak suke..
so,bile si lil one tak suke,maknye akan muntah n sakit perut..
last week sepatutnye aku balik..
tp sbb dah muntah2 camtu mmg dok umah je la gayenye..
tp sabtu tu bile bdn ok skit leh la g jalan2 skjp kt qbay ..saje tgk brg..
bdn skrg mmg hanya ade 50% tenaga je sentiasa..
tak larat..
harap2 tak lama la symptom2 ni..
encek ani asyik paksa makan je..
mmg kene mkn pon tp nk mkn pon tak larat..
camne la nk eating for two ?
semue bende takleh nk mkn

perut mkn muncit..
taktau la muncit angin ke ape..huhu
breast pon rasa sakit je..
skrg mlm2 dah start susah nk tido..
tak tau la nape..

bile dah rasa begitu payahnye pregnant ni...
rasa mcm camne la mak mak kite handle dulu2..dan berkali2 plak tu..
mmg tabik spring la..

tapi yg membuat kan rasa sedih dan terkilan sgt..
bile ade org sanggup dera anak..buang baby..
ko dah susah2 lalui kepayahan time mengandung dulu..
ko senang2 lak nak buang or dera..
mmg takde akal ke..
seriously..
sedih sangat..

Bdak2 melayu skrg..
semuenye dah mcm mat salleh..
senang2 je buat seks luar nikah..
bile dah buat bende2 tu..mule la buang anak..
ade org susah payah nk dpt anak..
nilai nyawa tu cam dah takde harga..

Bile tgk dunia skrg ni..
i'm scared for my child..
jauhkan lah semue2 ni dr anak2 aku ..
aku doakan mereka jadik anak yang soleh/solehah..inshaAllah

moral of the story:sayang dan respectla mak anda lebih-lebih..susah tau die mengandung dan beranakkan kite...

pregnancy

Dah lama nk cite pasal ni..
tapi mood di spoil kan oleh 'you know who ' la kan..
To that person, if I ever 'terkasar bahasa' or 'terambik ur crushes' during my uniten days,sorry la ek..I never meant it.. Seriously..Malas nk gaduh time2 camni..Bak kata my sis,nnt anak yg dikandung tu ikut muke org yg kite benci..Tak nak la nyahh..
Terharu sangat baca my hubby reply comment kt si Anonymous tu..
Thanks Sayang..

So,before tahu pregnant ni..
Symptom yg terkene adalah kekerapan buang air kecik yg terlampau.
When I say TERLAMPAU means every 5-10 mins rasa nak terkucil..
Mmg sangat severe..
Before tu mmg, kene Honeymoon cystitis..Infection tu bile terkucil,rasa pedih time shi shi..
Makan antibiotik, leh baik je..
But last month, nak tunjuk pandai, i didnt took the antibiotic..
Minum air banyak2 and only drank cranberries juice..
Pastu dah tak rasa pedih la time shi shi but the keterlampauan ke tandas tu still ada..
Sengsara jua la..
Tak tahan, then check kt specialist..
Dia check,takde pon infection..Urine clear..She also check for pregnancy..Time tu negative..
Balik la umah dgn kepeningan,nape la still shi shi tak tentu hala..

On that weekend,
we have wedding at Nilai..My dad's cousin wedding..
Nak jadik cerita..time shi shi tu, berdarah..!! Horror!!!!
Twice la time shi shi cam bleeding..Mmg risau gile..
Encek ani selamba ckp,oknye..takpe..kite tgk camne..
Mmg risau..
Dah la aku ni org yang sgt paranoid..
Tapi encek ani ni leh rilek je..(die mmg sgt cool org nye).Bape hari kemudian tu di landa pulak ngan kesakitan gigi..wisdom tooth tumbuh lak..,
Pada masa yg sama ngadu la kt member..
Diorg ckp,tah tah pregnant..Aku trus ckp tak..Last week check takde..

Then,
6th May,the day yg patut period tiba..
Pagi tu, terus terpk..
Nk buat pregnancy test la..
Only if i found the pregnancy test tu,aku buat because i'm totally forgot where i put it..
Tibe2 jumpe la..
So kene buat la..
Buat la ngn ati tak rela..
I pee on the stick..
And then i took my shower konon taknak pikir la..
habis mandi,gosok gigi basuh muke semue br tgk..

Rasa cam tak caya..
ade 2 line?1 faint line 1 clear line..
Tunjuk kat encek ani..
Kitorg cam blur2..
masing2 tanya betul ke ni..
So we bought another one just to make sure..
Beli lain jenis gak..
7th May, check lg..
Still sama..
Ptg tu g jumpe doctor..
Die scan tak jumpe la lil one tu..
Doc tanye " Awak test betul ke ni?"
Me dalam ati "ade cara lain ke nak test"
So, buat urine test lg sekali..
And its positive.. Tapi faint line gak..
Confirm pregnant but still in a very early pregnancy..
Doc bagi susu anmom,enfamom dan mamil mama..
Sample2 la utk try..

Trus ckp kt adik ku about the news..
Diorg yg lg excited..
Encek ani and i are very cool about it..And sometimes are still in denial..i took 5 pregnancy test just to make sure i am really pregnant..semue lain brand..hahaa
Lg pon time tu aku still sakit gigi..
takle se excited org lain..
Siiyes weh sakit..
berdenyut2 je kepala..
Sian kt encek ani..
Sangat penyabar melayan kerenah si wifey yang mengada ni.. :p
I know he love to spoil me sbb tu tak kisah nk ngada2.. LOL

Last week,
dah g buat buku merah kt klinik kesihatan kerajaan..
the nurses there are super nice..
Very informative..
Cume tak leh scan ja..
Leh scan bile 12 weeks..

Yesterday..
Ade farewell lunch..
g la mkn kt kedai mamak ni..
They serve nasi on banana leaf..
Before ni leh je mkn kari and those masala chicken..
Malang mmg tidak berbau..mungkin berbau kari sedikit semalam..
Selepas makan,perut mula memulas2..cam ade sharp pain..
Dan panas je perut ku..
kapala sudah pening..
Terus la g klinik..
Baby tak suke kari kot..
Angin yg banyak telah kuar dari badanku..(faham2 la ye)
Di sebabkan incident semalamla..
Aku telah berjumpa dengan si LIL ONE..
bersaiz kacang pea..
Tak percaya rasa..
nampak degupan jantung si LIL ONE..
comel..


moral of the story..: dengar ckp doctor..jgn buat andaian sendiri..sekian~ :p

baby bump at 6 week

These pictures were taken this morning..before breakfast ye..
i donno whether this an actual baby bump or i'm just fat.. :p
i hope that lil one is healthy inside..